I hope this is coherent enough. I am falling asleep at the computer (good thing I'm not driving!) Its something I wanted to get written though. I have a few more posts to follow this that tie in with it. They can wait till later, I'm going to bed!
Have you ever read through the book of Psalms? I love that God felt it necessary to include such real honest heart searching as are included in some of the Psalms.
7 Hurry to answer me, O Lord! My spirit is becoming weak! Do not hide Your face from me, or I will become like those who go down to the grave.
So many people think that Christians don't have any troubles, that their lives suddenly become perfect once they accept Christ. There are a lot of Christian churches who think you have to be perfect and not experience hardships if you are saved.
3 My soul is in great suffering. But You, O Lord, how long?
4 Return, O Lord. Set my soul free. Save me because of Your loving-kindness.
5 No one remembers You when he is dead. Who gives You praise from the grave?
6 I am tired of crying inside myself. All night long my pillow is wet with tears. I flood my bed with them.
7 My eye has grown weak with sorrow. It has grown old because of all who hate me.
One look at the Psalms shows us that it is not necessary to have a perfect life- nor is it necessary to act like you do. God expects and wants your total honesty with him. He knows life is hard and wants you to talk with Him about it. He is your best friend and your Father. We need to be open and honest with Him.
3 For my soul is filled with troubles. And my life comes near the grave.
4 I am added among those who go down into the deep hole. I am like a man without strength.
5 I am left among the dead, like those who have been killed and lie in the grave, whom You remember no more. They are cut off from Your help.
6 You have put me in the deepest hole, in a dark and deep place.
7 Your anger has rested upon me. And You have troubled me with all Your waves.
8 You have taken my good friends far from me. You have made me hated by them. I am shut in and cannot go out.
9 My eyes have become weak because of trouble. I have called to You every day, O Lord. I have spread out my hands to You.
However, we also see in the Psalms that the writers did not stay in their pits. They were down and in the dumps, they knew to cry out to God. The situation may not have changed, but their perspective and emotions did. They remembered where their strength was found.
81 My soul becomes weak with desire for Your saving power, but I have put my hope in Your Word.
I have bad days, days I really just want to crawl back in bed- days when I feel like I am in a dark room with no doors. Those days will come, when Satan is working at you, slowly chipping away trying to destroy you. But, no matter how many chisel marks he makes, he can't put a dent in your foundation. If your life is settled firmly on the foundation of Christ, then even in those bad days you will still know deep down the truth has not changed and God will carry you through. You may struggle and question, but in the end you know that you know God will pull you through.